Thursday 10 November 2011

Diary

This one had betrayed the other. And the other the next. The dirty stowaway was brooding in the hold: evil deeds were in the making. Outside, the weather had been foul, leafs blowing through the sky like slate. Somewhere in the distance (in an entirely different book) an accident on a deserted country road. Gasoline and blood on the street; two dead bank robbers. In these pages: cool acceptance in quiet mourning sentences.

A perfectly dramatized fiasco, secretly enjoyed. Days of beachcombing, walking around like a beetle. Feeding ducks, eating ducks. Flat out laughing at the self. Self-mockery, a tedious lull, attempts at self-deception. Unsuccessful, as usual. Folios of calmly rippling words in their pyjamas... until the next lynching. Madness in a fancy dress. Pride in a space suit. How many women does it take to change a heartbulb?

7 comments:

  1. Hey Martijn,

    So you got yourself a computer?! Nice:)
    I absolutely love Mary and Max by the way!
    Such a sweet and tender story...
    How are things with you?
    Been there four times... No job, what now, etc...
    Not much fun!
    But I'm sure it will turn out for the better!

    Lies

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  2. Hey Lies! How things are? A little more chaotic than usual I'm afraid. Everything looks shakey for the future, but things definitely needed shaking up so, yes, I'm with you: all for the better. I just wish I had some of that optimism and go-get mentality that works so well for you. But I have forced myself into some of that, professionally and socially (ask our friend, you'll be amazed perhaps). Yes, we can change! Greetings & war paint!

    Mart:)n

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  3. Hey Martijn!

    Yep, heard all about your yes saying period ;-)
    Good for you! Like Jim Carrey!:-)
    It's not at all easy for me by the way, the optimism and go-get mentality...
    It's hard and sometimes I wake up in utter shock at night!
    But, I have to push myself as I am the only one who can make something fun of her life:)
    And I believe in just one life.. After death there is just nothing, which is totaly fine, but I want to make the most out of the time I have!
    And I already spoiled so many years, but hey! Ik ben een laatbloeier:))
    Good luck with hunting for a nice! job ;-)

    Lies

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  4. Spoiled your years? Don't say that. You spent them. And especially if it is fun you are looking for, than perhaps goofin' around and actually háving fun is in no way time spoiled. At least, I don’t think so. But perhaps you just meant used up. Yes, we have used up a lot, true. I too have used a good number of years whereas in my mind I still think "everything has yet to start"... But that is a peaceful thought too at times, to be still a little boy.
    Hey now. You have that fun and be successful. And I will try to do the same. Let's not wither in the bud. Funny, no, us two Dutchies writing in English. If you prefer our Moerstaal, than it is fine by me. It's just that perhaps foreigners like to read it, and except when they are Flemish, they can't understand. But your English is Masterly of course, only your name sounds funny in English. Mine too of course. Greetings!

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  5. Yup, full of Lies that Lies ;-)

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  6. Boy, are you killing my spirit! How can you bear to be like that, Martijn - I would not WANT to live in a world like that. And I bet you don`t either, so take better choices. Go watch the Stephen Fry youtube videos on Depression!
    This is Thanksgiving after all, a day to count your blessings! Thanks for still coming to my blog. I did not mean to pull you down with it. Repentance always includes a new beginning, didn`t you know?

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